The Hole

As I write this I feel my hole is getting bigger. I don't understand but I feel that something is missing and I can't figure out what exactly it is. When I am doing something, I feel alone and the thing is I am. No one listens to me. I am the youngest in my family and of course all the attention is going to my sister who is at university. Sometimes I don't mind but at times I feel like my thoughts and feelings are put aside for someone else's. I feel empty. I don't cry for things that I should be crying about, I don't have random outbursts of happiness, I...the hole is getting bigger. What's wrong with me? I have everything I could want and yet something feels wrong. I am so confused. And the sheep is lost in the herd.