Just Today

Well, as the elections loom closer and closer, i don't know what to think anymore. Was I right for doing this. I have tons of experience and loyal people who are going to vote for me but, somewhere deep inside i feel like I am going to lose. What do I do? For once I wish someone would read this blog. But, that now seems like one thing that is not going to happen. Why do I always doubt myself? There are things I am not half bad at. I like to sing, but I have never sang alone. Not even for an audition. Also I like writing songs, poems and novels, but not once have I ever shown anyone anything. The only thing I can seem to show is my smile and my laughter but that isn't a talent. Daniel, the new kid, has been here for almost a month and his taking vocal lessons, made all sorts of friends and has no fear. I wish I could be like that. He admits that he's cried and he seems all emotionally strong, I can't remember the last time I cried. Something is wrong with me. And the sheep is pushed to the side of the plate because the wolves think of it as too different.

STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What is with the unknown power of stress that everyone has to deal with? It is like some super power that can make people do crazy things like scream their heads off or commit suicide or even run nude along the highway. Stress is what is bugging me tight now. I have so much to do and so little time and the funny thing is that I am wasting my time blogging to a whole group of nobody because the thing is that nobody is reading this...oh well. Anyways like i was saying, i have elections to deal with, a million projects and the constant drama every teen seems to deal with. Not only that but also the thought and insecurities i have about myself that lurk deep inside my head, engraved in my brain is something that is saying "you're not going to win the election. Give up!" But, like so many things in my life, i push until i have finished using 100%...okay that is a lie. I hide in a corner watching as everyone fulfills their dreams and i can't even take that one step to start fulfilling my own dreams. Why is that? Because I am too god damn frightened to do anything and also because the nonparallel force of stress is eating at my brain. So I have to now go into the world and deal with that tiny voice in my head that contradicts everything I do and say. Sorry if this is sounding emo, but at least you got a glimpse into the life of the person writing this thing. And the sheep jumps off the cliff...only to find that it is 1 ft. high -_-

let's keep it short and simple

what i can't understand is why the new kid is always the center of a discussion.
no one knows who that person is or who they really are. They could be pretending to be something else and no one would know because they're the new kid. Is it some kind of super power that they posses or do people just talk about everything and the only thing they can think of talking about is that person. I am going with choice A. Well, what brought this on, a new kid. Name...Daniel. He is pretty good looking and also i have found him to be a good friend but i cannot stand the constant "who is that guy?" or the "OMG please introduce me!!!!" Why can't you introduce urself? And another thing, girls don't go all slutty on the guy and think that he is gonna like it because truth is, they thinks it is kind of stupid and disgusting. Like this one girl was showing Daniel her boobs, she was leaning forward and squishing them together wit her arms. disgusting picture...I KNOW! I was there and has to witness the whole thing while keeping my barf in. So moral of the story, treat the new kid like any other person and please don't flash your boobs in public because chances are, they ain't as great as you think. And the sheep gets blinded by the wolves erotic-ness.